and you were afraid before.... in 2 days time it will be a year since my youngest son wiggled his little body on this earth. Which events cause the most emotions? remembering the last kicks? the moment I saw him on the ultrasound and didn't comprehend there was no beating heart, no spirit? the phone call from the Dr? the phone calls to my husband or my dad. lying in bed with his body still inside me praying for a miracle. my family rushing to my side. my husband never failing to show his love and devotion. finally laboring and delivering his body knowing he was long gone. delivering him on mom's birthday. holding his tiny fragile body in my arms. so tiny so perfect. Wishing so much that just once he could have seen my face. that I could have looked into his eyes. seen him smile watched him grow.
my little Theron I hope you know how much you are loved and missed.
I am raising 6 boys, Tater is 17, Tang is 15, Itty is 14, Birdy is 9, Ptah and Rah are 6 year old twins. They are amazing, gorgeous, incredibly smart, witty and clever. They are also unruly, they are a mob all by themselves, and they terrorize my home every day....